My Sancturay~

It's amazing.. sometimes to just look back and smile.

But each time i take two steps forward.. i take one step back. Yes, i am progressing. But at a super slow speed. My life in Christ is just scary. I really don't know sometimes whether i am in the wrong church...

Everytime i go to church, when i go back, i hear negative things about the church..
'oh, service started late.'
'dear, the worship session was too long..'
'pastor's sermon isn't in depth enough'
'why can't they cut the sermon short?'
'does this pastor care about the church?'

And here i am thinking whether i am growing as a Christian in this church

At times, i feel like just leaving the church to find another one. But each time, i fear. Because of three reasons.
1) Some of my good friends are there.
2) I fear to start all over again in a new church
3) I feel comfortable with my pastor

However, the third reason is losing hold on me. And the only thing that is truly stopping me is the second reason. Because i know i am close to my friends enough to still keep in contact.

Sometimes, i feel like lashing out at the pastor, parents and all the grown ups. I mean, if everyone is taking.. who is going to give?

Anyway.. there was a saying.. 'when there is people, there will be trouble'

Okay, change topic... talking abt grown ups make me sick sometimes. I sincerely hope i don't become like them.

Personal life, i feel free and great. I mean, it is nice to clear all misunderstanding and speculation and trash out the truth. If two people are frank.. i guess it will work... So right now, i can truly honestly interact with one particular guy in my class without feeling awkward or worried that a misunderstanding might occur. And i really enjoy the freedom... finally

So, ya, that's about it.... *Grinz*

9:44 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999