This is my on line journal, where i place my thoughts, fears and dreams in. Sometimes when i forget to write it down on paper.. i will just type it out. It's easier, perhaps for me to do so since i type pretty fast on the computer.
Why is there a need? Well, i was tempted so many times to write down my thoughts elsewhere.. but yet unable to find a place where i can be totally frank with myself. Because what i say, feel and think will be censored by others... friends, family, relatives. So i must as well just do so annoymously on line. So which is why i have not much links... and i'm virtually unknown... to anyone, except a few of my friends who know this blog.. Which isn't a lot actually.
So in that way, i still remain unknown in this virtual world, unless someone decides to hack into my account. :) but since i'm just a small fry, no one will go through so much trouble for that.
So, let's get back to my original content... eh... :)
School is havoc, since i have loads of homework and assignments. And on top of that, i was sick merely a week ago. A bad case of gastric flu. However, the worst thing that could happen is the aftermath of it.
Going to school... has become a drag to me. I don't feel like going to school. Not because i hate my course. Rather sometimes i wonder whether will i ever fit in. All this while, i'm trying to find a place to fit in. In primary, secondary, college, and teritary. And yet, i fail.. time and time again. College was the hardest i presume, because they don't really understand me. They never bother understanding me either- i can't read novels, newspaper.. .they don't understand how i think and the way i feel... I spent my college life being under scrutiny and criticism that i forgot how is it like to actually issue compliments.
Now, i have to start finding my place again. Perhaps the only way to find it is to find out who am i? Funny... to be at my age, and still trying to find out who i am in terms of personality, character, values and beliefs. It's strange. But i guess i tried to fit in so much that i forgot who i truly am. I recognized the fact that i am easily swayed by people's thoughts and opinions. However there are certain things that i have to stand firm. The question is what are they?
So... which is why i love this blogskin.. it shows a darker side of life..
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999