Tuesday, August 01, 2006

I will be totally frank

The two of you read this not because i wish to tell you that life isn't worthwhile
What i want you to know that no one is perfect.... And there is more than meets the eye, from a girl like me.. who seems so open and somewhat carefree.

I am honestly be the worst role model ever. But hey, i have no intention to be one.. just a friend who you guys can depend on, and perhaps be my support when i need a shoulder to cry on.

With that disclaimer.. i will proceed on.

I felt like a failure when i looked at the results... C. I honestly HATE that letter. A C grade for my physiology practical. All my life, my physiology module is plagued with Cs... You know how irritating is it when it's one of your major core subjects.. i think more than 5 credits attached to it. It's sick. It's so sick that i just want to give up and just let things be

But this stubborn side of me refuse to give up. I want to show the world that i can do this... this exams and ace it.

Gosh, i must be crazy to think that way. Coz it's a long way up. But i want to do it. I want to prove myself that yes, I'm a good OT. Not for my parents, or my teachers... but to myself

Coz really, i feel that i might not have the thing to be a good OT. With blunders after blunders... i never did this badly in school till now. I hate it. I feel like my life isn't that worthwhile in school

Sometimes i feel so beaten... and out.

But i want to rise from the ashes.. like a phoniex.
I want to be a fighter... not only for my life as a student.. but as a therapist who wants to make a difference

Now, if i can only get back to basics.


9:34 PM

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-SeishirĊ Sakurazuka X/1999

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