Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Utter madness...

That are the two words i can describe my life at the moment. It is just insane that it has come to the point where i can't have any personal time to vent out my thoughts and feelings. I am bombarded by deadlines, emotions and feelings that i wish I don't have to deal with at the moment.

But it has come to a point that i feel very awkward with guys... I don't know. I feel as though i am beginning to be paranoid. I look at a few guys and i always wonder whether they have an ulterior motive behind certain actions... I am really getting uneasy with one of my classmate- yes, the same one in countless of entries

I avoid him at all cost.. feel awkward to even pass him consciously. I can only talk or do things around him comfortably unconsciously. Does it even make sense? I mean, why am i really clamming up. Honestly clamming up

No, i don't like him, or have feelings for him.. But sometimes my friends make things seem as though there is something going on... It's very irritating.. and to the point make me feel AWFULLY uncomfortable..

I dread the day when my pastor comes back. It will be awkward at the best... Fireworks if something happens... But i want it to be settled and not just be swepted under the rug for so long...

Haiz~ a little jumbled out with my thoughts. But finally gotten out the one abt the guys thingy of my chest...

9:08 PM

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-SeishirĊ Sakurazuka X/1999

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