My Sancturay~

As i look and think back..

I just wonder is it possible to be swamped by sadness and regret?

to feel utterly used, conned and cheated?

To feel utterly useless and insignificant in society?

I always wonder why do people in life demand so much from others?

Why do they feel that they need to put down others in order to be feel good about themselves?

Another thing that got me thinking is what makes me tick among the other half of the world population- the supposedly 'special someone' seems too overrated and too much fuss over NOTHING.

Maybe it is my lack of ability to convince someone that I am special... is very scary.

Lack of confidence... I just love that phrase so much that i am getting sick of it.

I ask myself this question: what makes me special?
Being cheerful
Bubbly
Encourager
Full of energy
Listener
Optimistic
Tries her best to be a problem solver, a creative person (fail miserably)
Believes that she is a good team mate (barely)

Right.. took me a long time to figure this short miserable list...

Why am i so good in putting myself down?

Perhaps that is why i feel so lousy at the end of the attachment. They tell you the good stuff first.. then the list of bad stuffs are longer- and as the result, you feel lousy.

Scared.. scarred battered and bruise....

*goes off in search of the real me*

1:09 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999