My Sancturay~

I wonder how i was so clueless to the point that i didn't see what he truly is

He did an amazing move on Sunday.

He talked about forgiveness.

Amazing. A good lesson for everyone to learn. After all, we are all hurt and angered by someone in the church. However the irony is that of all people, he is the one preaching it.

The one who caused the hurt and frustration of many people.

How many were hurt by his careless words? How many of them are angry over his stubborness not to listen to advice?

How many left the church for better shephards?

He doesn't need to manipulate people to get the church moving. Not at all. All he has to do is to show to us that he truly cares for the people who he is shepherding and give us the necessary support as we serve- reliable,loving people who has eyes on God and not on the things aroud them.

Is it difficult to see?

Perhaps, after all, i know what it is like not to be able to reach the standards that people had set for me.
The unrealistic standards that i tried to met and instead I fell and hurt myself emotionally. And the worst part is that instead of support, i find wrath.

Desires that are self driven. Ambitions that are not meant to be.
What is the joy of ambition when you end up driving people away from you.
What is the joy of trying to please someone when in the end, they don't care about what happen to you. They just want to milk all you are worth and just get on with their 'roadmap' to success.

You don't need seminars and bible studies to try to let us see that you are trying to help. At the end, you will just chuck them aside if they fail and not want to do anything with it- using excuses such as 'no time' or 'not worth investing the time' to worm away out.

It isn't wrong to fail. It is only wrong when you refuse to see the failure as something to learn from and to build from it. After all, mistakes are merely lessons that are to be learnt.

What are you doing? Stop trying to manipulate us. The more you do it, the worse you become.

3:53 pm

Blind fury mingled with lustful love
The pain that tears hearts apart
Sometimes she wonders when it will end
The never ending torture of unrequited love

Strong longing hurts the most
Reaching out for love that cannot be grasped
Why why.. the heart cries
That fate has to deal such cards

Tears mixes with angry
Angry curses littered the cries
People around could just shake their head
Turn their heads away and lead their lives

Why couldn't anyone care?
Could it be because of her?
Or is it because of them?
There is no answer...
None at all

9:24 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999