My Sancturay~

I wonder, why people are willing to spend $1000 for a plain looking tote which is branded? Is 'brandism' so prevalent that you need to have branded stuff to look rich and affluent?

Frankly, I hope i would never grow up and become so self conscious over brands that i waste money on trival stuff and not invest in more important things.

I feel very sianz at work. Luckily I am not studying anything related to accounting. Despite the fact i love numbers, accounting isn't really much about numbers. It's making sure that cash flow into the company is more than the cash flow out of the company and balancing the figures to make sure the outside auditors be happy with the way we go about balancing the accounts.

But as i slog through my final month at work, the question that truly bothers me is what sort of job that honestly appeals to me.
I don't have the linguistic skill to weave words into beautiful poetry
I don't have the ability to be precise
I'm careless with my work- being careful would drain out a lot of my energy.

Sometimes i feel as though my only profession that i can be comfortable with is being a student. But it's a profession that requires to spend money rather than to earn it.

I thrive on deadlines. But i prefer a short respite after each dateline. Accounts department never get rest. Once you clear one deadline, you realise there is another looming at you. And the cycle continues until you stop working.
Of course, it doesn't help that you are understaffed and the colleagues around you don't make an effort to help out (especially your boss)

But i realise, once again, that no matter where you are, you bound to encounter office politics. Only a smart and quiet person can get away from it scott free. So the only thing that i can do is just to keep quiet... -_-"

It's a random prattling of words, trying to figure out what to write. But since it is my private diary, no one here knows my name, or my face (well at most two ba).. i am entitled to my own rattling.

I was dwelling in the past for a while, and somehow i have to balance the lost from quitting my course and venturing into something new with the fact that i might have a higher chance of figuring out what i want to do with my life.

That's bad. Not knowing what to do with my life at my age is extremely worrying.

12:05 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999