My Sancturay~

One of the little joys in life is to always smile no matter what cards fate has dealt you with.

Today is one of the times that i could laugh and maybe bristle a little, and know that i am just acting.

A simple phone call and i was thrown back to the JC era. An era that i made a mistake thinking i like someone and realise that actually i am more captivated by someone else.
An era that made me wish that i could have just forgotten whatever he had said and just be a 'friend' once more.
An era which my darkest period of unrequitted love occured.

I think she was just trying to make a conversation. Or perhaps trying to figure out whether I still have feelings.

It's a lie, perhaps, to say that i am totally indifferent to him. Because guys like him commands emotion- happiness, anger, sadness, pain. You cannot be experiencing a void of emotion when you hang around with him. That is plain simple fact.

Then what are my emotions with regards to him?

Respect, a small portion of fondness, a great joy of laughter-especially when i am down.

A friend perhaps... i think i could consider him as a friend.

4:44 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999