Sometimes i wonder, what makes people so well loved?
Is it their chrisma? Is it their charm? or is it their love for others?
It's funny. All my life, i always wanted to be somewhat popular, or at least be well liked among my friends.. or at least have an interesting life And so far, i think my life is simply.. plain.
I keep wasting my emotions on the wrong people. Trying to please those who could never be pleased, and not caring for those who accept me for who i am.
Sometimes i still wonder, am i too demanding, or have ridiculous high standards... I AM a pushover. And i hate it. Maybe i hate confrontations. So when it happens, i would be the one backing down and then hating myself for not standing firm on my ground.
Being a demanding girl and yet being a pushover seems very contridicting.. I can't demand and yet fold easily to other people's opinions at the same time....
Yes, it's another self-pity post. But i'm snapping out of it. Because being too popular or having too many friends is bad. You don't really know who are the real ones who really stick by you.
I always prefer to have a small number of close friends than a wide network of acquitance..
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999