My Sancturay~

Where do I start my musing?

I was aimlessly wandering around town and i realised i don't have many close friends

I was thinking who I would invite if i have a 21th bday celebration and i realise not many

I was thinking about the fact that i drop out of my previous course and go on to another new one and I am tired to try justifying that what i did was necessary and was a good choice.

I'm just sick and tired of trying to explain when all they go is 'har? why u quit.. you should just finish it before doing other stuff!'
I just want to tell them "does my decision affect you in anyway? If not, bug off!"
But i'm too well-mannered to say it so bluntly in people's face.

It's just frustrating. If I have to tell certain people certain things.. what would i say.

To my church mates.
Some of you made it enjoyable to go there and talk, chat and laugh together. Some had hurt me but i realise that in the end, we did hurt each other one way or another unconsciously.
Others who are just down right ignorant and blantantly obnoxious to think that the world evolves around them.
The worst are those who does things out of spite and say it done out of love. For that, you can jolly well just disappear from my life!

To the male population who doesn't think too highly of me
I'm easily pleased and downright dependent on people despite my tough act.
If you want a girl compliant and clingy, perhaps i wouldn't be a wise choice.
I have a wise ass tongue and a rude attitude towards you all coz it's better than being nice and sweet and then realise that you guys don't give a hoot about me.
Please, i do have some of my pride k

Lastly for people who think that i am doing a stupid thing by quitting my course
One word for you- butt off!

4:42 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999