My Sancturay~

I'm trying to grasp whether it is my anti-social nature that makes me feel ailenated with the group, or is it just me truly unable to click with the right group.

Or is it age that left me cynical and wary?

The idea of being alone is so scary that it can make me scream. But yet at the same time, I crave to be alone much too often.

Where do I strike a balance? Or will i really freeze up and be alone?

I am finding it harder to fit in University and BSF. Why was it only 2 yrs ago i could chat and be so ignorant of people and find really good pals.

I truly miss them. Their crap and the jokes.
And the knowledge that they will be available when i send an SOS.

Painted picture veiled with silk
Seems so appealing yet so fake
The fingers itched to discover the truth
Only to realise everything was a lie

Unpredictable and unloved
Seeking refuge out of nowhere
Hating every moment yet begging for some
Disillusioned and lost

Picture ripped apart
Colours smudged
Painting destroyed
At a snap of a finger

They say happy ever after
I say they lied
Only a few would have it
But I’m not one of them

4:01 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999