There was this 12 years old girl who thought that she had everything. Friends, good marks (Except for Mandarin) and the world was going for her.
One day, a teacher made a positive remark about her, causing one of her friends to come to her during break and teased that she was the teacher's pet.
Frustrated, she lost her temper and told her friend off, saying that she was not the teacher's pet. She has a rotten temper and was not in the mood to be teased.
At 12, the world could be mean. With lapse of control, her friends, the ones that she treasured turned against her. Word spreaded like wild fire, saying that the girl was a bad tempered girl and should not friend her. Wihthin a day, she lost all her friends. But knowing that she was wrong to lose her temper, she approached the ones that she angered. She followed them to the toilet and apologised to them. However they closed the door on her, refusing to say anything regarding the apology. Broken hearted, she closed herself up and left the toilet, deciding that she had to be alone.
The following months were painful ones. The girl didn't eat during recess because she had no one to sit with. She would go off in her own solitude, vowing not to be dependent on friends again.
Funny though, 2-3 years later, she was in talking terms with a few of them. However, there was one of them that she couldn't mend the fence with. Even so, she hoped. During the rare times the girl met her, she smiled and said hi. The person refused to even look at her as she turned her attention to the one beside her and started a conversation.
The girl hardened her heart, refusing to forgive people who don't want to forgive her.
7 years later, the girl made another mistake again with another close friend which involved the parents. She asked for understanding and she never got it from the friend or from the parents. Even the adults around her demanded her to apologise for something she didn't think she should apologise for.
And people wonder why the girl refuses to let it go...
Perhaps we know why.
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999