I'm coming out, stronger... I believe for the first time, I can do this.
*Take in deep breath*
I read his blog before 3 March and then I typed a blog entry for him regarding some issues that he was facing, as a form of encouragement for him, myself and the people who are reading it. In the end, I just overreacted when he asked on my chatbox whether the post was for him... You could figure out that I was not pleased.
I stopped. I stop reading his blog. I don't have to power and the determination to read his blog, be so into his problems, issues and everything and yet be so far away, observing him without being able to reach to him and pet on his shoulder and tell him that things might get better.
So I'm doing it. And so far, it seems to be working. I have to consciously remind myself not to touch his blog link. It is like a drug addict craving for a sniff. But enoguh is enough. So, I hope I can persevere through. *Take in deep breath*. If I have to lose what's left in the friendship, so be it. Because I rather have nothing than to settle for crumbs on the floor...
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999