1) I feed off people's emotion. I will get nervous/edgy when the people around me are. If they are excited and enthusastic, I will be able to join in the fun. If they are moody and grumpy, it somehow spills over. I can only be cheerful for a short period of time but if i have no one to bounce it on, I can't sustain for long
2) Because I feed off people's emotion, it can also be said that my opinions about myself also depends on what the people thinks about me. So, I get nervous when they are annoyed at me and so on. Having said that, it means that if I rely on the right person, I should feel relatively positive about myself. But the catch is to find the right person. And I think that it is time to depend on God for that.
3) I will really need to get a role model from the bible. Someone that I can say 'I want to be him/her of this generation'. It will be bragging. However, I really want to follow God more closely than ever.
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999