That next day after I blogged the previous post (2 dec), I was faced with the onslaught in a form of a cute nerdish looking guy called T. I chatted with him on 3 dec (while we waited for our paper), attended a mini play which his church put up along O Orchard Road during Christmas and exchanged smses, facebook messages and msn conversation ever since. I was on cloud nine no doubt- until I came crashing back to reality as I realised we still run in two completely DIFFERENT circle of friends. Yeah, i know some of them.. but not as close to call them friends.
Then after flying off to USA, J chatted with me online... and then he asked me 'so, do you have anyone that you are interested in... I can help you pull strings'... Crap. How am I suppose to say 'oh yeah, I would love to know you better... Could we hang out more often after I come back from USA?' OBVIOUSLY NOT!
Fortunately B hasn't appeared in my life when I went off to USA and we haven't been talk When I think of my personal life, it is a bloody mess. Sometimes I wonder why God put me through this. Is it to test me? I don't know why.. but sometimes I feel that God is testing meto put Him first. When I finally learn to love him whole-heartedly, then He will show me my special someone.
Still, can I do away with all this drama!?!? It's so whatever?!!!
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999