I experienced alot of drama and a wide range of feelings in my life for the first 2 months. Excitment, serenity, peace, anger, hurt, fury, frustration, faith, disappointment, awe, thanksgiving... and now restlessness.
Pented up energy perhaps. But the strange thing is that I don't know how to release it. Should I play a basketball game or go shopping? Maybe it is because I cannot get anything done. I want to get a bicycle and a vacuum cleaner.. Yet, I haven't gotten any of it. I think procrastination irritates the hell out of me. I have to plan my schedule in order to do what I want, complete a report and revise for my money and banking.
You know.. when you are so determined to just forget about a person, he just appears out of nowhere and just haunt you mercilessly. I just give up. Like, give up. I will remain indifferent towards him. Play whatever game you want. I won't bother anymore. I won't let my mood be affected by you. That was my mistake in the past... and it won't happen again~
So I will be cordial and polite. I might fool you, letting you think that I have past my tantrum stage. I have past that stage. But instead of caring now, I have past the point beyond caring to cool unbothered indifference. Sometimes I will find it difficult to ignore you. However, I firmly believe that you will revert back to your old habits and you will fade away...
Just the way I like it...
As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-
Never throw your life away.
Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-
Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin
Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in, that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles
Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki
Welcome to this illusion I've created. A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999