My Sancturay~

How do you balance support and approval?

How is it that I am so sure that what I am doing is right when everyone seems to think it isn't a good idea?

Context:
1) Stepping up to serve in Crusade...
2) Stepping out in faith to go and teach...

The explanation:
My family tells me to focus on study, maintain my grade to get honours. After that, go and find a non-teaching related job before switching to teaching if I am interested.

The season of my life:
I am in NUS for a reason. Is it honestly just to study and that's it? If God provided me the fourth year in school, isn't it for a reason to make a difference?
If I am convicted to go to teaching, is it a point blank statement of saying 'it is God's will and therefore you cannot argue with it'?

How do I explain everything to you all without fearing of being told that I heard wrongly from God? Can I tell you everything that has happened is for something bigger and crazier in my life? It is something that I cannot explain myself.

It is funny... how I hear my mom talks about trusting and following God while she tells me to do things that I can achieve on my own 'strength' and attribute to my own self-sufficiency?

11:29 pm

Quotes

As long as you continue to be yourself, that's enough
-Shigure Sohma, Fruit Basket-

Never throw your life away.
-Folken, Escaflowne-

Touya: There are no such things are coincidences in this world--
Kaho: --there is only the inevitable.
-Cardcaptor Sakura-

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving
-C.S Lewis, The four loves-

Love is different for everyone, Yahiko.
Among a hundred different people
there would be a hundred different forms of love
-Okina, Rurouni Kenshin

Sometimes people forget that they have the courage to live.
But as long as they have something in their hearts to believe in,
that courage will never vanish
-Sakura Kinomoto, Tsubasa Chronicles

Regret is just a waste of time for fools
-Cho Hakkai, Saiyuki

Welcome to this illusion I've created.
A world of our own, with our rules
-Seishirō Sakurazuka X/1999